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one day i ran really fast.

i searched the world, and all i found was you

i like looking back on my life
i like looking at the hard times

and realizing i got through them

i like looking at the things that took time

and realizing i endured

and realizing i wasnt alone

s.m

but i'm five years older, six maybe

i didnt think i was lable anal, but today some girl called me scene and i almost kicked her face in. actually i just awkwardly giggled, which i often when i get mad at people who dont deserve it.

i got the most amazing college cataloge from the school of visual arts in NY. i dont even know. i would have paid good money for that book because of all the amazing art in there, but it was tottttaaaally free. with the stinking tousion they charge though... it better be free.

i rock because i got my goal in the time trial today. 5k (3.1 miles) under 30 min. not walking at all. which in the big scheme of things (the world record road 5k run is 14:42-ish) isnt that good, but heres to personal progress and satisfaction.

and yeah. running semi-alone for 30 min is suuuper boring.

im selfish
really
and impatient
i have a whole lifetime
but how long is that going to be
its not cynical
its practical

if only i could say this isnt how its supposed to go
but it is
because i have NO control

ok
s.m

We'll have problems, yeah then we'll have bigger ones.

i whipped out my itunes just to hear that song, and i didnt even have it! lame!
its a great one though: problems and bigger ones by harvey danger. look it up.

so idk how i am.

school's ok. my friends are alright. my classes could be worse.

but i have no alone time, and after a whole summer of alone time im really craving it. i just need to have a day where im home alone and i can ride my bike up to pride rock and just read or write or take pictures.

which i never do anymore, photo. and i want to.

i feel pressured, like there is too much to do.
i dont like it.

anyways im going stinking camping this weekend with lauren and i couldnt be more excited because im going to get to relax, hang out, take pictures, play guitar.

its going to be the best ever.

s.m

school tomorrow.

i am amped.

and refreshed. today rrrooocked.

s.m